Poem (7 months old )

My verbs color you gorgeous
Filling in the blank spots
Where I cant decide
If your amazing
Or just plain beautiful

My stanza's give me a better idea
Of how many times
Ive beckoned a kiss
Brought out your smile
And all those other things you do
That I yearn to see.

You are my muse
Dancing inbetween every line I write
For without you
These words would disappear

I've lost track of days
Lost in your voice
Rendering time useless
Except to whisper you "goodnight".
And welcome you to morning.

Wishing a day of cuddling
And so many more
of kissing and wondering
Not caring what the next day brought
Because I'd know, for those brief moments
I had what I sought.

I want you to know
That even if this falls apart
And the terms of silence are finally met
Never once did I falter
Not one moment did I regret

Our memory would live on
Banked with these words
Wishes of so much more
Traced around you
Like our legs wrapped together
Inbetween silk sheets.


May one day these poems
Echo with actions come true
May others read these wishes
Knowing they are as wonderful
As you.


Gift to the world.
Treasure to me.
Priceless and full of mystique

And thats how I know
How these words and wishes
Are so unique.

Poem (8 months old)

.. cold calamity
.. half bane. half godsend.
You turn off
the warmth
leave me freezing
rigid
without light
so cold.
I fight to escape
walls suffocate
trapping me in
..so cold
I see your reflection in the mirror
.. you look..
calm
collected
straight faced
I gasp for breath
you are not amused
our beginning is blocked
I scramble
sweat
I want air
breathing ..so sweet
your smell, your lips
let me breathe!
.. you yawn
deft of desire
..so cold.
no way out
my fingernails scratch
ice scrapings fall
painfully etching at my skin
freezerburn
doesnt matter.
you are not amused
. the reflection
you are walking away
I cannot breathe
scraping, fighting
I punch the walls
they do not give in
to petty boys
with their petty stories
I scream your name
it echos
ice traps the sound
..so cold
I miss your kiss
so warm
I want to breathe!
..you are not amused.
everything dims
light waves goodbye
kisses me on the forehead
where you did..
takes my hand
like you did.
I look in the mirror
you look..
sad.
tears freeze
down your rosy cheeks
rosy like
what got us here..
red
.passion
your finger on the trigger
just pull
I WANT TO BREATHE!
please
knees scrape the ice
I stare at you
beauty without contempt
you are not amused
I shake the mirror
glass fighting to stay together
..like me
I WANT TO BREATHE!
I want. to kiss
to feel you
nights under your deck
so warm
like your lips
red
passion
I cant see..
eyelids close
I whisper your name
dry lips
parting to utter such a noun
my last word
your lips
so warm
my mind pictures you
staring from the mirror
long hair still
eyes..
last wish
thoughts slow
please stay..

you are not amused.

Poem (1 year 6 months old )

Please
Please wait
For me

I'll miss you
I cant take the pain
Of you near me

I need to change
And
You stop me

you love me
and think im perfect
but I know im not

you say im handsome
but I know its not true
Thank you

You will never know
how much I want to love you
or my grattitude

One day
I will be back
And I'll be ready

For your love
and what you think
I am
will be true

I'll believe your words
I'll believe my own
and return your blessing

And we will walk
down the path youve wanted
and I want to desire

I cant love
but if I could

youd be the one

youd be the one

youd be the one

I'll make your dreams come true

wait for me

Poem (9 months old)

A thousand dreams; only one
muttering itself into existance
fading.slowly

emerging as subliminal lips
yours. enticing, chuckling
to see me squirm
but wraiths must enjoy


your mouth gestures a kiss
suddenly
you are alive
fierce
wanting nothing more,
than kissing this,
and kissing that
I enjoy the thrill,
the electric sound
your eyes;piercing me
like a knife into my soul
I'm. Rapture.

Hearing you breathe.
your lips rising
my thoughts enticing
so much chaos
I'm. Rapture
Discreet would be a crime
My brain pants
I like to feel your voice
A tease of future ghosts
Haunting me
Telling me
Your skin melts
My touch. Your skin.
Our bodies
Draped within. One.

Our future bears no weights
Empty clouds lie our heads
Inside I think of you
Arguing has turned sexy.
I'm. Rapture.
You are mine.


Your legs echo silks texture.
Hands covering them. My own.
Enticing. Your smile
I'm. Rapture.
You are mine.

Poem (3 months old) "one"

One heart cell
cannot live alone
responsive to just one other
solitude it cannot condone

Under a microscope it lies
searching for a two way screen
hoping to see its reflection shared
its direst wish is to just be seen

One heart cell
begins to break down
for without another to hold onto
hard to change an eternal frown

Just a dot on the radar
Easy not to notice a dying spec
But it takes such a simple glance to magnify
Maybe we should all just reflect

One heart cell has just passed
One to be replaced by so many more
And then one time I remembered your smile
I think thats what my heart bleeds for

We are all just one heart cell
Blindly searching for another to sustain
But in case I wander into dire straights
ill remember that smile, and ill always remain

Poem (2 months old)

Swimming in a pool regret
Feel's so refreshing
It is not what we accomplish
But what we had hoped to
Those are the thoughts
We think at night
We fall asleep dreaming of what if's
And not of what not's
I'll write a song for whom has not deserved
And I'll be forever daydreaming





What once was used
Now has use
To not be friendly
For one that has not earned friendship
Because once it is given
A message is sent
And once you let someone know
Your heart once yours ; now lent
Thrice years since
And still not forgotten
Scarred from the distant
Compassion yielded rotten
Sorrow gone mad with disgust
Remembering phrases
armed with hurt and pain
Yet seemingly forgetful
Through all my disdain
Now to live my life
without need or care
because in the end, my friend
are we really worse for ware?
Harsh misgivings i'll never forget
but reading this poem, tell me
were your words well spent?

Poem (7 months old)

Your discreetly amazing, You are a pain
You smell like a summer rose, And your sweet like autumn's rain
And whether or not its meant to be, And whether or not you believe
I know my time around you was forever priceless
By a smile that reminded me to breathe

And my fear of heights will always bother me
And I think physics I'll never understand
But will that ever matter when I finally know
What that feeling was when I held your hand

And I believe in you,
in a way my faith cannot pardon
And I know that someday
Your smile is meant for stardom

And time is sometimes tricky
And one day we may not speak
And one day my words might not reach you
..And fate won't let me peak

But my life is just beginning
And few things can I define..
But im fortunate to know what beauty is
Because your picture holds that sign

And whether or not its meant to be
And whether or not I'll ever understand
I'll always remember your smile
And I'll always want to hold your hand

No w

You ever wonder
What's out there?
I dont.
Not since I met you.
You and your framed glasses and blonde brown hair
I think I'll always want to play with it
Twirl it around like a ballerina dancing
You never seemed to mind.

I'm addicted to your laugh.
I cant help it.
Gorgeous and rare
so ..fucking gorgeous
It's hard though
knowing
I've found such beauty
So young
I guess we're fortunate
.. I have not a clue what to do with it

We met long before
In a party full of nameless ghosts
Only you stood out to me
Flying around in those skates
It's still a shame
I never caught you then
And even though your standing still
I dont know if I'll ever catch you now

Still, we're speaking!
Enough to satisfy and yet
Just enough to deny
The way you snort still makes me smile
I guess im a sucker for you
Such a sucker
Just for you though

I'll show you the ropes
How to switch lanes in style
Give me a highway long enough
more time to just chatter away
For oblivion
Or just long enough
To learn your favorite
Food
Drink
Scent

..everything
It doesnt matter

I'm so lost
I was a lot better at this before
When you were just a beautiful dream
Now its kinda gotten real
So I apologize if I fuck up
Or one day lose touch
We all have misguided dreams
If I do any of that just forgive me please
Its just all new to me
seeing your smile in 3-D.

I promise though
My intentions are pure
Mostly.. just enjoying what I can
Helping with this and talking about
That
And I can promise something else
I am for real
But if its even worth it to prove
The Jurys still out

How could I even begin
Describing in a post modern diotribe
To everyone that see's you
I'd say you were a mirage
But when I came up close
You were still just as stunning
Good thing this isnt the Sahara
Woulda died of thirst by now
I guess im a sucker for you
Such a sucker
Just for you though

For now
This is a secret
Well, mostly
I might give it away
Staring at your eyes
Wishing I could jump in
And stop the pain
I'd love to promise
that youd never get hurt again
But I found out long ago
Life is mightier than the shield
And there might come a time
When I see you cry
without a way to calm
an angels sorrow
It was never like this in my dreams
I might not know what to say
I might even fuck up
If that ever happens, forgive me please
This is just all new to me
I'm just not used to seeing
Your beautiful smile
in 3-d